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Well this one is not that much more cheery, i have to say...

It's Sunday afternoon, and i haven't received any information from PT regarding either placement, which is adding to my frustration. I don't really know what to do...there is nothing i CAN do until tomorrow anyway, seeing as the office is closed, but i don't know that there is any point in me pestering them anyway, it wont help anyone :(

Wednesday is only a few days away now... the long awaited phonecall will soon take place!

I honestly don't know what i'll do if they tell me that Honduras isn't an option. I really will break down. I've already lost out twice when Mauritania and Senegal both fell through, but if i hear that Honduras isn't going to work out, and that i'm just being sent to Chile because it's the only available option i honestly think i'll be inconsolable for a good few days.
I WANT to help people, no matter where i go...and i know that i can help people wherever i am sent, but when i feel insecure because i've been sent somewhere i know NOTHING about, i honestly feel like i wont be able to put every effort i have into making the most of this year, for me, and for the people i will be working with. I know this is just a moment of weakness, because as soon as i get out there, my self-motivation will kick in again because no matter where i am, i know that this is what i want to do.

I'm going to make the absolute most of this, but it just feels that everything is going against me. Please keep your fingers crossed that i make it to Honduras because i really don't want to be let down again... :(

Love, Jen xxx